For the last few months I have been hearing the Lord say, "Move". I continue to pray and I keep asking, "Okay, Lord, I hear You, but where do you want me to move?" This has really been hard for me and my family. It is an unsettling feeling. There is an unsureness in the air. I mean, "Move", can mean a lot of things.
Funny thing? That comfy feeling I had? It's no longer comfy and cozy. I feel the need to move, but until the Lord tells me when and where all I know to do is, pray. Most of all, I need to be still. How do you remain still while the Lord is whispering in your ear, "Move"?
I must say, there too is an excitement in my heart. Not sure where or what He has before me, but with Him, it's gotta be good. I have had a great ministry opportunity come before me. One that I see great hopes in and one that terrifies me. Yep, I am allowing those fears to stop me in my tracks. Could that be why the Lord is telling me to move? Does He see my fear holding me back? It could very well be.
I mean, this "Move", has had me question whether or not I need to remain in my home church of nineteen years or move elsewhere. I can honestly tell you, that thought terrifies me. I love my church family. My family grew up there. God changed my heart in that second row pew forever. We raised five children in that pew. We have seen four children baptised there, including myself and my hubs. Hubs was baptised there at the age of thirteen. So, for us to move, is a serious decision and one that we don't take lightly.
We too have been looking at new homes. Wondering if after raising our children here in our home, is it time for a move? Oh, the tears may start rolling now.
Does it mean move right where we are and be more involved? Does it mean move our bodies all together? When you hear something so huge from God, you ask, "Where to, Lord?" It could mean to move physically or spritually. Move closer to Him? That is my heart, to move closer to Him each and every day.
We too have been looking at new homes. Wondering if after raising our children here in our home, is it time for a move? Oh, the tears may start rolling now.
Does it mean move right where we are and be more involved? Does it mean move our bodies all together? When you hear something so huge from God, you ask, "Where to, Lord?" It could mean to move physically or spritually. Move closer to Him? That is my heart, to move closer to Him each and every day.
Is there more for us somewhere else? Is there another area He wants us to serve and grow in? I just don't know. That's the unsettling part. It would be nice to hear all of the instructions at once so you could prepare. LOL But the thing is, God gives a little at a time. I think He is growing me in this move. So, when that move comes I will be prepared. The only way for me to be prepared is to be prayed up.
In seeking God's will, I not only grow in Him, but I grow myself. I get to understand who He has created me to be. I must tell you, I keep telling my husband. "I want to serve. I want to reach the women of our community. I want to be God's vessel, but..." Isn't there always a but included? For me, that but is, that I feel so very small. Why could God call me to be part of something so huge? I already know the answer. He never calls us to something small and expected. God is all in the unexpected and HUGE. In the huge I must count on Him and seek Him to find strength and wisdom. I must totally surrender to Him with a humble heart. When it's too big for me, He gets to shine. Because then, it's no longer about me, but all about Him. You know, I love that part!
Are you looking for His will today? Are you searching for where you are to be? There is so much work to be done. He has already gifted us. Yes, He has! We have everything we all ready need for the work. We just have to tap in to His resources.
I read. I study. I pray. I am growing. But even in my growth, I still doubt myself. Isn't that funny? I can see God's mighty hand at work. I know He has a plan and purpose. My faith is right there with Him, but my doubts come when I think of, "Why would He want to use me?" Do you ever feel that way?
I don't want to make the wrong decision or jump too fast. I want to make sure my move is His move. So I will wait and wait, until I hear more from Him. It's kind of exciting waiting for that next bit of information.
Friends, if you are hearing the Lord call you to move today, wait upon the instructions. Allow Him to be the GPS and make sure your map is wide open. Don't jump ahead too quick, but be still and know that when we wait upon His direction, we can't go wrong. He will make His path clear when the time is right.
So, if you are waiting like me, remain in prayer and seek Him totally. Surrender all those fears and allow Him to remove that anxiety of, "Why would He use me?" He wants to use you because He loves you. He designed you for greatness. He wants you to soar.
As I am finding, before we can soar, we must learn to let go and allow Him to take the lead.
"For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, "Do not fear; I will help you."
Isaiah 41:13
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding."
Proverbs 3:5
"Those who know Your name trust in You, for You, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You."
Psalm 9:10
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
Joshua 1:9
