Lord, Help Me To Uncover True Worship Inside The Church

As Christians we keep things in, don't we? We hide our emotions as we raise our hands in praise. As we sing hymns of old, our hearts are burdened with hurts that isn't all well with our soul. We learn to put on a plastic smile as we shake hands during meet and greet. We attend church each Sunday hoping for more and settling for less.

We walk through the church doors broken in search of healing. We are lonely and looking for something to fill the emptiness we feel. We see the altar and only want to leave it all there. The anger and bitterness. The brokenness and chains that bind us to our sins we keep hidden. All we want is to find what the Lord promises. Hope, faith and love.

I found all of those almost twenty-one years ago as I entered the church I would soon call home. I found the family and friends that would encourage me straight to Jesus and a life with Him. This church grew me. I entered broken and bruised. Lost and searching. I am the woman I am today in part because of the loving people I called family who taught me and lead me to know the Jesus that would change my life for forevermore.

I haven't been to my home church in ten months. Ten long months I have been absent from the pew I have sat in for the last seven years. For the first thirteen years our family sat two rows from the front. I had to leave the church to find me. My body was present in the pew, but somewhere along the way my heart was missing. It wasn't active anymore. Ever find yourself just going through the motions? We have been MIA and it seems those years being present we must have been invisible.

You may be wondering why we left a church so dear to us. I can tell you that it was a clear leading of the Lord. During my prayer time I would be sharing with the Lord the wounds of my heart and the emptiness it was feeling. I heard the Lord say, "Move, my child". This is one of those life lessons of patience and obedience. I waited for months until I knew I heard the Lord clearly. At first I didn't know what He meant. Was I too move churches? Move in church? Was He talking direction or motion? A few months back I received my answer.

It was hard to move. How do you find a new church? Do you even want a new church? I can tell you after the hurt my family has endured I wasn't so eager to find a new church. Trusting a new church is difficult. It broke my heart not to return, but the Lord opened a door for visiting other churches. This has been a journey that has brought great insight. Every church has different ways of doing things. I found myself comparing every church to our home church. That isn't what I was to do. I was to focus and seek Jesus. That is exactly what I have been doing.

The Lord has been doing a wonder in my heart. See, I became too comfortable in my pew. I was allowing hurts to build up and each Sunday it was draining just to get ready for church. Once there, my heart was so hardened, I could no longer worship. My anger had gotten in the way. I became dependent on my church. I was depending on the church to feed me, to meet my spiritual needs. They weren't being met and I wasn't being fed.

Since then my prayer life has grown deeper. I am making my way through studying the Bible. I have been reading great studies on the Word and life of Christ. Each day I am seeking Him as I never have before. See, I was seeking for the church to fill me up each week. When that wasn't happening I was giving up. My attitude on church was not a good one and as we visited other churches I found the truth. No church is perfect. How could it be when the church is filled with imperfect people? We are an imperfect people trying to find our way to Jesus.

I think, like a lot of others, I was expecting too much from my church. When they no longer were meeting those expectations I grew hesitant and weary. The truth..I allowed all the junk to enter in to my mind and heart and I wasn't allowing the Lord to be my filter. I am to go to church to worship. Simple as that. I am to worship and if I am led I am to serve in my church. In that service I am still to keep my eyes upon the mission and purpose of Christ. But I no longer had room in my heart for worship after I had heard all the gossip and backbiting. Church is over and what is happening? Really, what takes place after church on the ride home? For our family the ride home was as if we had never even attended church. Tears would easily come. It didn't feel like home any longer. Changes were happening that didn't settle within my heart.

Do you think God allows things to bring us closer to Him? Friends, I know He does. I believe it is the Lord Jesus who has placed me in this new journey. I have grown in ways that was not possible where I was. He needed me away from the junk so that I could regain my focus and see what was really important. Him and nothing else. If He is my total focus, He will take care of the rest. I can't expect from others what they cannot give and friends, no one gives love like Jesus. I turned to my Bible like never before. I found grace and forgiveness. I found a new way of life that I hadn't yet reached while sitting in my pew. I had to get out of my box, my comfort zone and step out in faith.

Visiting other churches has been a challenge. I know it has been the calling of the Lord. It has truly been eye opening to see how others worship together. How people interact with members and visitors. How they lead in music and how they pray asking for the leading of the Lord. I can honestly tell you some churches have been so warm and refreshing, while others have been rude and lacking in making one feel invited to share in worship. I think most of all, I am learning about myself. I am more in tune with the uttering of the Holy Spirit. I feel driven to read my Bible. I find myself saturating myself in the word only to raise my hand in praise as I have an 'aha' moment. Don't you love uncovering all He has for you?

The Lord isn't calling me back to my home church yet. So, I continue to go where He leads. Like never before I am in prayer of His will for my life. I am realizing more and more that if Jesus isn't the focus than I need to walk away. I am in constant check of my motives. I am learning to speak up when the Holy Spirit is nudging. Most of all, I'm not afraid to simply be me. The girl He created me to be. I want to use my gifts and talents for the Lord. I want my life to be used by Him. I want to live without excuse and without regret.

Am I hurt by my church? Yes, that is a deep seated hurt that the Lord is healing. By His grace I realize more and more that we are just people trying to figure it all out. Sometimes we get it right and others we fail. But where we fail, the Lord is there to bring beauty to the ashes. He is there cheering us on along the way. We are all on a different path and our journeys are different. Our callings are unique. We grow in different ways and the timing is all Jesus. We are a work in progress. I think that is one of the things we forget. We expect perfection out of imperfect people.

We have to be willing to forgive. We must be willing to extend the same grace we are offered daily. We are not always going to agree and lets be real, we aren't always going to like one another, but we aren't called to like one another. We are called to love. Love without exception. Boundless love. You know, it's the only kind of love, true Jesus love.

Church is Satan's favorite place to be. I really believe that. As we sit in our pews he is there to trip us up with all kinds of things. We forget we are a church filled with sinners. There isn't one person in the entire church who is doing the walk better than another. We are so quick to judge and correct others as we drive home with our hidden sins. See, we are simply to love people where they are at. Sinners in need of grace.

We get puffed up with our jobs and positions. Oh, if we would just allow the Lord to humble us. What we need is revival. What we need is just pure worship. Just imagine what would happen if we got out of His way and just allowed Him our lives to touch a world not in need of seeing us, but of seeing Him.

I just want to be the girl God created me to be. I need encouragement just like the next girl. People want to feel needed and we want to be accepted. Why can't we just serve Jesus with everything we have and put all the egos to rest. It's not about who does more or less. Who is involved and who isn't serving. It's not about lifting up a certain few and ignoring those who minister in secret. It's about serving our Savior and allowing Jesus to live through us to bring His message to a world in need of His love.

Jesus, bring us to look more like You. Humble our prideful hearts and give us opportunities to serve you. Place in our path people in need and place in our hearts a willingness to move outside the box and reach a world who isn't so different from us. Might we remember we too were once lost. Help us to share in Your mercies. Give us hearts that look past denomination, color, creed, money, and may we value each and every person with a Christ-like love.

I'm still figuring it all out. I'm just a girl who loves Jesus and wants to serve Him. Where are you today? Have you been hurt by your church? Friends, don't give up on church. Don't give up on Jesus. Open your hearts to Him and give Him your deepest wounds. Only He can bring true healing and forgiveness.

When it all comes down to it we should be living each day with the attitude of grace and with actions that whisper mercy and words that spring forth inspiration. At the end of the day, it isn't about how others lived their day. It's about how you lived. How I lived. It's about our walk with Jesus. At the end of the day we should be able to ask Jesus, "So, Jesus, how did I do today? How did I do with all You gave me?" It's not the cheers of others we desire or need. It's the voice of our Savior saying, "Well done, My daughter. You used up everything I gave you and you took every opportunity to bring glory to Me. I am delighted in you, My child."

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

Victim of Grace (When God's Goodness Prevails) by Robin Jones Gunn

When your in a book store and your eyes are traveling up and down the shelves, what is it that catches your attention? A name? A book cover? Maybe the subject? Robin Jones Gunn is one of those eye catching authors. I see her name and I grab up the book. I may even just drop everything and sit in the aisle of the book store and read for a bit. Yes, I have been known to do so with great enjoyment. Victim of Grace is one of those books!

Robin's latest book is more than an eye catcher. It's a heart changer. The cover is inviting. The title inquisitive. I can honestly tell you I loved this book from beginning, middle and end. As I read I often had to stop and ponder the words before my eyes. This is Robin's story. A story of grace and how the Lord has moved in her life through circumstance to show her His mercies new daily.

At first I wondered about the title, "Victim of Grace". Does anyone really want to be known as a victim? I mean we see that word and think weak. But what is the definition of victim? Victim: (noun) from the Latin, victima, a live sacrifice. Hm..that kind of changes things doesn't it? Aren't we living sacrifices for Christ? What about the definition of grace? Grace: (noun) a manifestation of unmerited favor. I love when a writer doesn't just share the word, but gives us the deep meaning of what the word is to them. Robin does this with such gentleness, her words flow. She shares with us how to surrender to the Savior when all seems impossible. Through that surrender she finds peace and a grace that sets her free.

One of the verses Robin shares is from 2 Corinthians 10:5. She shares deep and raw about the struggles of her personal life. When the onslaught of these thoughts targeted her she used this verse to bring her thoughts back to Jesus. "Today I am casting down my imagination and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ."

One of my favorite sharings of Robin is this: "The reality of "what is," not the fantasy of "what could be," is the place where God's will is accomplished in our lives. Learn to make peace with the mysteries of surrender, submission and endurance."

Robin too shares of her journey of writing. This is powerful for me. Her words give me great encouragement to continue onward believing and trusting that Lord is working behind the scenes and in my heart. In the most intimate moments of my struggles He isn't leaving me, but strengthening me for the journey He has just for me.

The scripture verses that Robin shares are poignant to the story she is sharing. This is one of those books that makes you realize your not alone. Each page brings inspiration through the eyes of a woman after God's own heart.

Robin not only shares stories from her life, but from women of the Bible. One of my favorites is chapter 6 entitled, A Banner Word. The scripture heading is, "Godly people..do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the Lord to care for them." Psalm 112:2 Robin shares her journey through a diagnosis of cancer. I simply lost myself throughout this chapter.

I can tell you reading this book feels like I've enjoyed a weekend with Robin, sharing coffee, and speaking heart to heart. Friends, this is one of those rare gems that is a must read. We have all lived those times we thought would take us under and by the grace of God here we are today. Those times will surly come again, but God's goodness will always prevail. This beautiful book will set a course for you to stand in strength and grace for those uncharted lands of our journey that will always lead you straight to Jesus.

This book was a gift from Zondervan through the Booksneeze program for my review.

Robin Jones Gunn Over the past 25 years Robin has written 82 books with almost 4.5 million copies sold worldwide. To her great delight, Robin’s books are doing exactly what she always hoped to do – they are traveling around the world and telling people about God’s love. She is doing the same. Over the past ten years Robin has been invited to speak at events around the US and Canada as well as in South America, Africa, Europe and Australia. Robin and her husband have two grown children and have been married for 35 years. They live in Hawaii where she continues to write and speak. www.robingunn.com

A Life Of Faith Has All The Makings For Ministry

We often think of a ministry belonging to pastors or missionaries. If we walk in faith and are believers, friends, we have a ministry. Our ministry is our family, our friends, our local community, our place of employment,  and those we meet daily. Yes, our ministry reaches all those who walk in our path. Ministry is reaching out to others in love. As we minister to those around us we share the love of Christ through our actions and we share the gospel through our words. Through ministry we accomplish the calling Christ has given each of us. Through our ministry we use the gifts He has bestowed upon us to bring praise and glory to His holy name. Knowing our calling, using our gifts, we can reach the world together.

Are you a momma who stays home with your children? There is your ministry. Do you also work outside the home from 9-5? Those you encounter at work are part of your ministry. Are you a school teacher? A farmer? A grandparent? Our ministry begins right at home with our family and from there it grows to everyone we meet along the journey. God has a way of placing people in our path with purpose. Don't you know He is always planning ahead to give room for blessings to flow. All He needs is a vessel. That vessel is you and me.

Remember, ministry isn't about numbers. It's who the Lord has placed in our path at the moment. Ministry is about sharing the love of Jesus. It's about reaching out and sharing the gospel. Ministry is serving others with the passion of Christ. Ministry is meeting people where the are and pointing them to Jesus. Ministry leaves behind a legacy of love. We may not even know the depths of our ministry until we reach heaven.

I think of the life of Paul. He ministered to thousands and he is still ministering to thousands as we read God's Word and understand the life of Paul. He held himself to a high calling of God. He didn't measure himself to any other. He measured himself to the Word of God. He left behind his old life for the new life he found in Christ.

In studying 2 Corinthians today I came across chapter 6. Paul has written to the church at Corinth. He opens up and shares with them just how their walk should look. People should be able to see that they are different. They are set apart from the world in which they live. People know they are different by their actions. Their lives tell of the precious grace of God. He shares the example of character traits we are have. By their walk it should be clear that they belong to Jesus and that Jesus is their everything.

"We give no offense in anything, that our ministry may not be blamed. but in all things we commend ourselves as ministers of God: in much patience, in tribulations, in needs, in distresses, in stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labors, in sleeplessness, in fastings; by purity, by knowledge, by long suffering, by kindness, by the Holy Spirit, by sincere love, by the word of truth, by the power of God, by the armor of righteousness on the right hand and on the left, by honor and dishonor, by evil report and good report; as deceivers, and yet true; as unknown, and yet well known; as dying, and behold we live; as chastened, and yet not killed; as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and yet possessing all things." 2 Corinthians 6:3-10

That pretty much covers it all, don't you think?  In my study this morning I read over these verses many times. It almost looks overwhelming, but not impossible. Isn't it about attitude? A heart condition? Yes, change must begin in the heart. Once the heart is accepting of Christ the body soon follows. In my daily walk with Christ I stumble greatly, but I am reminded of David. Oh, how he stumbled. He too knew the will of God and he knew when he was outside God's will. David had a heart after God. He knew the tender mercies of God and was faithful. We happen to have a God of second changes. More than seconds, but thirds and fourths. Praise Jesus, all we must do is call upon His name and He answers. He is good to show us where we stumble. He wants us to realize the cause of our stumble so we can be on guard. Jesus wants to see us soar!

As faithful servants we are to hold ourselves to a higher standard. Praise Jesus we have a God who doesn't lower His standards. He meets us right where we are and the metamorphosis begins. The closer we are to Christ the more we clearly see His will. We are to live in such a way that the world sees Jesus through us. We are live in such a way that we point others to Christ and Christ alone.

Let us get back to that attitude of ours. We may say, "Gosh, I'm only human". Yes, we are human, but our Savior came to this world in human form and never sinned. He knew no sin. He was perfect in every way. Christ can be perfected through us when we allow the Holy Spirit to live and move in us.

That attitude we have? We can surrender our thoughts to Jesus. Yes, every time a thought comes to mind that shouldn't be there all we must do is surrender that thought to Christ. Remember in Matthew 16:22-23 when Jesus is predicting His death and Peter speaks against the Word Jesus is speaking, "Far be it from You, Lord; this shall not happen to You!" (vs.22) What was Peter thinking? He wasn't! Read what Jesus says next, "Get behind Me, Satan! You are an offense to Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men." (vs. 23) Satan loves to get into our thoughts. He gets into our thoughts and then the words fly. Ever utter a comment and before those words are out your regretting it already? Satan loves it when he can take our thoughts captive and speak through us as if we have no control over our own tongue.

"We capture every thought and make it give up and obey Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:5

"Be careful what you think, because your thoughts run your life." Proverbs 4:23

Aren't you glad we have a God who is in total control? All we have to do is turn to Him in trust. As we focus on Him our actions will obey Him. Our words will give Him praise. Oh, how we fight temptation. We battle sin. Friends, there is good news. Victory has already been won! Jesus will give you strength to overcome the temptations you battle daily. He will give you courage to face your sins head on. He will wash you in grace as you surrender each and every thought over to Him in obedience.

Don't ever allow Satan to tell you that you can't do it. Satan once had Paul under his thumb. But when Jesus got a hold of Paul, Satan had no more power over him. Paul allowed Christ to use his life as witness to the world that God is good, that God is merciful and that with the strength of Jesus Christ everything is possible.

It is time we live our life of faith being specific in our prayers. We know the areas in which we struggle. When wrong thoughts interrupt our walk give them to Jesus right then and there. Change your focus. Don't give Satan in inch, for if you do he will soon take a mile.

In the closing of the first letter Paul writes to the church in Corinth, he shares these words. "Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. Let all that you do be done with love." 1 Corinthians 16:13-14

As we begin thinking of our walk as a ministry it changes things doesn't it? We aren't here to live a life of solitude. We are called by God and given a God size purpose. He has equipped us with everything we need and He's even given us a guide, the Holy Spirit, to lead the way. Don't fear your journey. Walk in faith and God will bless your ministry.

"Finally brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy-meditate on these things." Philippians 4:8

Life Is More Than Just A Passing Grade

Back in high school my priorities were not getting good grades. I simply did enough just to pass. Oh, I could have done more. I began as an A student. The work was easy, but I just wasn't into work, so I simply did enough to get by. I'm gonna open up from that raw spot now. I didn't finish school. I was bored with it. So, I quit. After quiting I got my GED rather quickly. I aced my GED and received a scholarship to go to UMSL. You would think the logical reaction would be, sign me up! But no, I did the total opposite. I thought, "Who in their right mind wants to go to college for four years?" Hello, most would have jumped for joy and readied for a career, but not this girl. Nope, I wasn't concerned with school. Again, I was the girl who did just enough to get by. I'm not quite sure where that logic came from. But this is what my young adult life reflected. (Praise Jesus, we are a work in progress!)

I grabbed that GED and headed straight for Cosmetology school! Graduated and began beautifying people with my talents. I loved my job and it was one I was great at, but it didn't satisfy me. Nothing seemed to satisfy me, that is until I became a momma. After that, I no longer did just enough to get by. I gave it my all.

Now, you may be wondering just why would I share that bit of info with you all. Well, it is a great example for how we can at times live our Christian life. How many of us do enough just to get by? We start out excited and on fire. Nothing can keep us down. We are ready for anything. That's how I began high school. I know without a doubt I could have finished with honors, but that wasn't my priority. You can only guess what my priorities were.

I remember being a child in first grade and I was so excited when I brought home a paper with an A on top of it. Oh, I just knew my parents would be proud of me and they were. Oh, my heart soared to hear my daddy say, "Great job, Rob!"

As Christians if we are not constantly being fed we are going to grow bored. We have to be courageous and bold for Jesus. We surround ourselves with people who will cheer us on along the journey. We must find ourselves challenged by the Word. We are going to search for something that fills us and if we are not careful we are going to leave behind everything we know for something that isn't in God's plan for us. I am not so sure we are to ever truly be satisfied here. I mean, after all, this isn't our home. We are to long for more, but while here, shouldn't we be giving our all? Too often, we just do enough to get by. This life holds such beauty for us. Every moment we breathe is a possibility for God to move greatness through us. Every time our feet move on His behalf is an opportunity for our gifts to shine Jesus. We were created for His purpose. That is nothing short of glory and grace. We are His vessels. His very hands and feet. For us to use them for anything less than His glory is waste.

Just as works without faith is dead, faith without works is dead. Pastors become stagnant. Those sitting in the pews do it Sunday after Sunday because they think that it what they are suppose to do. But what happens when your not being fed? What happens when that excitement that was once there is gone? Do you remain just because or do you take a stand and reach for more?

If we are not always reaching for more we are going to miss out on opportunities for growth. This world is our classroom. We have a choice to remain seated and learn or we get grab a hall pass and skip out on what is most important. There are people who are just waiting to hear about Jesus through one who is humble and serving. We aren't to outshine one another. We are to simply to allow Jesus to shine through us.

If I could go back in time knowing what I now know, I would have finished school. Not only finished, but gave it my all. How awesome to receive a scholarship as a second chance! (Which reminds me, we have a God of second chances!) I wish I would have taken it. The Lord yet opened another door for me. A door I chose not to go through. Do you ever look back and wonder what life would have been if only? Now, wallowing in those if only's doesn't do us much good. But looking back so we don't make those mistakes again is life lessons that bring great wisdom.

We are called to do more than just enough to get by. If we are listening to the Holy Spirit, He is going to move us to do great and mighty things. They are going to be things beyond our wildest dreams. We envision our life here on earth, but God envisions more for us. He has called us to greatness and He has given us the greatest example of all, Jesus Christ. What if Jesus would just did enough to get by? Would we be heaven bound or would earth remain our home?

Friends, we are gifted. God has placed gifts within us to use for His glory. Are you tired of the same old routine day after day? It doesn't have to be that way. What if we all just simply changed our attitude? What if we walked with purpose? What if we allowed God's passions to lead us? Just what if we truly lived love? Everything around us would change.

I have been studying the life of Paul. Paul didn't start out so great in the grand scheme of things. He persecuted Christians. He was mean and full of nasty, but the grace of God changed him forevermore. He became a man of God who gave until it hurt. That is a question that will shake us to the core. When is the last time you gave until it hurt?

Paul did more than speak the gospel. His very steps showed the world that there is more. While in chains he shared the Word of God. He continued to love throughout every situation in his life. He didn't give up. He followed the example of his Savior. Where is our example to the world? Too often as we doing just enough to get by, we end up giving up on people. Doing just enough to get by is selfish. I was selfish when I was young. I wanted to do it my way and nothing else much mattered. Sadly, that is the attitude of many Christians today. I'm not pointing fingers, friends. I am right there with you. When I accepted Jesus as my Savior, my life is no longer my own, but His. Surrendering my life for the life He created for me is boundless beauty. The sky is the limit when Jesus is leading the way.

Don't we do the same? As Christians we go through the motions. We speak many words, but our actions don't quite follow. I'm afraid living a life by doing just enough to get by is a life lived with regret. I have already had regrets. I don't want to get at the end of my life here on earth and face my Savior with regret of not using up everything He gave me.

I want to wake each day and uncover what He has for me. I want to walk with passion. In every conversation I want Jesus to shine. I want my life to be used up for the glory of God. That cannot be done when I just give enough to get by.

We do this in our every day lives. We go to work only doing enough to get by until the weekend comes and then we are ready to live to the fullest! We go to church on Sunday ready and willing, but then when Monday comes and the Lord is calling, we fall short of moving on His behalf.

We expect so much from others. How can we expect such from those around us if we ourselves are not willing to go the distance and beyond? Friends, it's time to do more than just talk the talk. We are to walk the walk until our feet are tired. As we grow tired God will fill us up as He meets each and every need of ours to complete His will in our lives. After all our Savior gave for us, is it really too much of Him to ask for us give our all?

Until we begin doing more this world isn't going to see the Jesus we preach. Until we get our hands dirty and get sweaty work is doing to go unfinished. We have to be willing to do more. No, it isn't a competition. We aren't to compete with others. We are simply to do all that Christ calls us to do. In doing His will in our own life we won't have time to wonder what Joe or Sally are doing.

It's time for us to have an attitude of, "What's Next, Lord?" If we are busy in His work our minds will be focused on Him and our hearts will settle for nothing less than pure love for our neighbor.

How do we do more? We set aside our life for a life of Christ. We search to have a heart like His. We get in the Word. We surround ourselves with people who inspire us and encourage our walk. Find a church home where you can grow and serve. Most of all we need to change our attitude from loving just me to loving those around me. Find a great study and dive in deep. Seek out a mentor to help you stay accountable to your walk with Christ. Our options are endless. There is so much to be done. We don't have to do everything, but we are called to to do may we do so with a passion and purpose.

Friends, when it really comes right down to it, we are out of excuses. Just as I was little and excited to hear my dad say he was proud of me, I now want nothing more than to hear my heavenly Father say to me, "Well done, my good and faithful servant. Job well done, My daughter."

"Examine yourselves as to whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Do you not know yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you? unless indeed you are disqualified. But I trust that you will know that we are not disqualified." 2 Corinthians 13:5-6

"Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31

"Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one received the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified." 1 Corinthians 9:24-27

Chasing Francis (A Pilgrim's Tale) by Ian Morgan Cron

The latest book on my review shelf is, "Chasing Francis", by Ian Morgan Cron. This work was first published in 2006 and is due to release again May 7. In reading the back cover you get the gist of the book. Pastor Chase Falson is going through the motions. He is beginning to question everything he has been taught. The church is seeing this change occur in their pastor and they too are questioning his motives. Nothing is making sense. The church asks Chase to leave until he can get it together. He is off to spend time with his uncle in Italy. On his visit there he learns the teachings of Saint Francis.

I opened this book not really prepared for what I was about to uncover myself. Ever question yourself, "Is this all there is?" I have. Leaving church I too have wondered, "There has to be more." As we take this journey with Pastor Chase we come to see that when the heart leaves behind the things of this world and searches for nothing but Jesus, you find Him.

I found this book to be surprisingly good. Not every book comes with a study guide in the back. I must say I found the study guide to be helpful. Questions were asked so that you could reflect upon the journey Chase had taken and compare it to your own journey as a pilgrim.

I could totally relate with Pastor Chase in the reality that he just wanted to leave, to get away. He didn't leave Jesus and his faith. He was simply questioning. Some may think that questioning makes for a weak Christian. There is nothing wrong with questioning our faith. That is how we grow. Along this journey Chase reached out to those he knew would lead him. As the book begins we see Chase going through a change. It was his last sermon preached at the mega church he was pastoring that put the deacons over the edge. As that last sermon hit them wrong, there was one who reached out to the pastor and shared that it was his best sermon ever.

See, Chase, preached from his notes. Never leaving what he had prepared. On this last sermon he began with his notes, but left them behind and truly opened his heart. He was no longer hiding behind the motions, but poured it all out, being as real as he could be. This is what Jesus wants from us and this is what I can take away from this book. Get out of the humdrum. Leave the comfort behind. Change the scenery and go all out searching for the will of God. Once Chase left behind the normal he found the perfect will of God. He found himself while searching for Jesus.

This book was a gift from Zondervan for writing my review of, "Chasing Francis".

Ian Morgan Cron is an author and nationally recognized speaker. His spiritual memoir Jesus, My Father, the CIA, and Me: A Memoir...of Sorts was a Wall Street Journal bestseller and a featured title in the Barnes and amp; Noble Discover Great New Writers program. Ian lives in Tennessee with his wife, and three children. Website: www.iancron.com.

A Circumstance of Faith

April 20th is a day that will forever be just a memory away. It's the day my dad died. He had battled cancer for a year. That was twenty-seven years ago and at times I can recall it just as if were yesterday. I was nineteen when my dad died. Only nineteen. That was a life changing moment for me. In years I was a woman, but in so many ways I was still a little girl in need of her daddy. My life went spiraling out of control.

So, in April of this year when my mom got a call from her doctor it sent me back all those years ago. My mom had gone in for her check up. An x-ray showed something unusual. She was sent for a CT scan. The days waiting for the results were difficult. I'm much older than nineteen now, but when this is your parent, I don't think your age matters what bit. Your still scared. Just as when my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer I tried to be strong. I'm not really sure I ever cried in front of my parents that entire year.

My mom was nervous. In her mind she already knew she had cancer and was dying. She announced, "I don't care what it shows I will not have any kind of treatment. It is what it is." My mom is a woman of faith, but I knew she was frightened. She had seen my dad go through a terrible trying time and she didn't want any part of that again. I had to respect her wishes.

Unlike twenty-seven years ago, I am now a woman of faith. I knew in my gut that this was nothing. I feared what it could be, but I wasn't even going there. Not yet, anyway. The nurse had told my mom, "There is a mass in your lung and we have to find out what it is." Those words brought deep anger to me. My dad had found out through a phone call that he had cancer. I wasn't about to allow my mom the same. I called the doctor. I didn't get answers, so I went into the office. I read the report and it wasn't a mass. It was "something" that was two centimeters in diameter. Once my mom heard the word mass everything stopped. She was no longer thinking clearly, but found herself in fear. All I wanted to do was comfort my mom. I could imagine my mom going to bed that night with a pillow covered in tears.

I began praying. I remember when my dad was sick I would pray. I didn't know Jesus as my Savior, but I knew there was a God. At least I did until my dad wasn't getting better. Then I was angry. I was bitter and I knew without a shadow of doubt there was no God. Now as I look back, even though I refused to believe in God, He was right there with me. He was creating an opening for me to come to know Him. Oh, isn't that how we are? When things are going the way we wish God is real and great, but the moment things begin to go a different course, Jesus isn't real at all. He couldn't be. If He were, He would show Himself real, right?

That's not how believing works. I know that now. While waiting on the results of my mom's tests I poured my heart out to the Lord. When I was all alone the tears came easily. My thoughts were, "Lord, not again. Not my mom." I could feel fear welling up in me. I grabbed my Bible and began reading His Word. I could feel Him easing my doubt. With each prayer, with each word uttered, I could feel His strength and His tender mercy washing me into peace. It was then I knew that whatever happens I will still believe. Faith is trusting in the Lord when you can't see what's about to happen. I spoke through tears and said, "Lord, whatever Your will. That too is what I want."

My mom's tests came back and there was nothing unusual in the CT scan. I lifted my hand and said, "Praise Jesus", before my mom was even off the phone. I told her, "See Mom, I told you everything would be okay. No matter what, I told you Jesus would take care of everything." I wish I had known that kind of faith when I was nineteen. It would have brought me through a time in my life that almost destroyed me. But just as the Lord brought me through then, He has carried me through other trials that I didn't think I would survive. By the grace of God I am here to tell you that God never leaves our side. As He brings us through one trial, He is preparing us for the next. My faith has grown deeply as I have witnessed Him move in my life. I can honestly tell you, I was ready to hear the worst of news or the best of news. Whatever it was to be I knew that the Lord would guide us. I knew that no matter what He would bring us through and be with us each step of the way.

This April was the anniversary of my dad's home going. My dad was saved just a few days before he died. Again, God is so good. He had a plan and that plan included bringing my dad to salvation. In that I have peace and comfort. I know without a doubt I will one day see my dad again. It was during this same week that all this was happening to my mom. I think this is one reason it hit her so terribly hard. I'm not sure my mom will ever totally heal from losing my dad. Does anyone really? That pain is just one memory away always.

In my journey with the Lord I have learned that I either believe in Him or I don't. I either trust Him all the way or I don't. On this journey of faith I have come to that place that no matter what I still believe. My prayers were answered and God's answer happened to be what I wanted to hear, but what about in those times in the future when my prayers are said and they have reached heaven, but the answer is no? What then? Prayer isn't about getting what I wish for. Prayer is a conversation between me and my Savior. In faith I must be willing to accept His answer whatever it may be.

I say this now, but more trials will come. My faith will be tested. This world will try to shake me. No matter what changes come we serve a God who is never changing. I am to pray for His will. After all, He sees what I cannot. He knows the outcome and if I'm willing to follow Him all the way, He will show His mercy and grace. His plan will unfold before my eyes and if I'm focused on Him I'm going to witness His boundless glory.

We can't allow the circumstances of this world to shake us. Our core must remain solid in Him. But friends, it's through those very trials that we learn more about Him. In learning about Him we learn more about ourselves. There is no Goliath too big for God. He knows every detail to every situation we face. We don't have to fear at all, for He is already there ahead of us preparing a way.

We must walk in hope and we can with our Savior. We can be encouraged through His Word. We can be inspired by His life. We can be transformed by His love. Sometimes the unexpected is going to come. We can't be prepared for all circumstance that touches our life, but we can be so firmly planted in Christ that when those life altering moments come He is the One we turn to for support. It's okay to scream. It's okay to cry. We are going to be angry. God created us with emotions. We feel pain. We hurt and confused. But friends, that's the beauty of having a Savior. We can go to Him and be honest. He is accepting of us and He will meet our needs. He fills that void. He comforts where nothing else can. He eases burdens. He gives strength when we are weak. He is there for us. I have come to realize that He is my all.

I know that there are other issues my family will face. Life is filled with trials and pain. It's part of our walk. It too is filled with love and laughter. It's the journey with Jesus that changes everything.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:6-7

You Just Gotta Have It!

My husband has beautiful feet. I look at his feet with envy. How many of you ladies are with me? Yes, my husband's feet are prettier than mine. My heals are cracked. I'm telling you if one wasn't careful you could fall in those cracks and never be found. My husband says my feet should be labeled as deadly weapons. Okay, I may laugh about my cracked heals, but they are so cracked that at times they are downright painful.

I was watching a program a few weeks back and seen a miracle cream for all. I just knew it was too good to be true. A dermatologist was saying, "Yes, this is a magical cure for just about everything." I was intrigued and curious. So, I gathered myself together, and headed out to get some Aquaphor. I came home and was so excited to apply this cream to my elephant heals. I stand before you today and I can proudly say that after using this stuff for just two weeks my feet are looking just as purdy as my hubs feet! Yes, I am won over by this miracle cream. My heals are so smooth. No more getting lost in those ugly cracks.

What won me over was the truth being told about the product. I could hear from others who have used it that it did wonders for different ailments from diaper rash to eye cream. People were astonished. This stuff has been around for years. I had seen it on the shelf and I had always just passed it up. Just a little goes a long way. I am now telling everyone about this cream. I've told friends they must go out and get some for themselves. I mean after trying it and seeing just how fantastic it is, how could I not share with others?

Last night while laying in bed I proudly pointed to my feet and said, "Take a look at these beauties! Your not the only one with pretty feet anymore!" My husband laughs, but he has to agree. He says, "That must be some good stuff your using".

So now I have something I feel everyone needs to be using. I sat down and pondered a few things. I'm so excited over this cream that I am willing to make a fool out of myself so others will try it too. Where is my excitement to share Jesus? Why am I not calling everyone I know and telling them about His miracle called grace? When it comes to sharing Jesus I can come up with every excuse under the sun. I wouldn't want to offend anyone. Okay, so I'm concerned about the callused and rough heals across the world, but what about the callused and hurting hearts in need of healing?

Just has these women won me over with the truth about this product, I too need to win people to Jesus with the Truth. I know of His love. His grace is evident in my life. I have seen what our God can do. Think about it. Our lives are a platform for share Jesus. We can be walking billboards pointing everyone to knowing the Savior that has changed our lives.

It's okay to be excited over something great. We get excited over many things, but shouldn't we be even more excited to share Jesus? We are in a time and place in history where it's easier than ever to share everything. On Facebook all we have to do is hit a like or share button and it goes to all our friends.

Our lives are a living testimony of Jesus Christ. Our walk will either bring others closer to Christ or lead them farther away. We share great recipes with others. We share great books that touched our hearts. We tell others about a new restaurant we enjoyed. Movies, television programs, products, ect.. The list goes on and on. Our excitement is alive for all sorts of things from concerts to sports. We stand and cheer. We celebrate victory.

Friends, victory is coming when our friends and family are won to Christ. Victory comes when we live in such a way that our lives make an impact for Christ. We need to share Jesus more than ever. As each day passes He is another day closer to coming. Do we really have time to rest? If we are excited about Jesus and what He has done and is doing in our lives, then we too should be excited to share with others.

Is Christ calling you to share with someone, but your afraid of offending? Don't be fearful of sharing Jesus. Share Him through an example of your life. Should we really be concerned if we offend someone? I would rather they be offended that I stepped out in faith to share Jesus with them now, than for them to be offended later when it's too late and they are left asking, "Why didn't you share Jesus with me?"

Share Jesus through the gifts you have been given. Those gifts are not just for our use, but they are to bring glory and honor to God. Be bold in Christ. He is worth sharing. People want to hear about Him. They want to hear your witness. They want to see the Truth in your life. People can tell whether something is fake or real. Jesus is the real deal. We just need to be the vessel in sharing His goodness with others.

"This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends." John 15:13

Desert Temptations

Are you waking this morning already battling temptation? Temptation is everywhere, isn't it? Even before I crawl out of bed my thoughts cause me to say, "Whoa, where did that come from?" I don't care what anyone says, we all struggle with temptation. Each and every one of us battle Satan on a daily basis. He knows us well. You know, unlike Christ, Satan cannot be everywhere at one time. Think about that. So, how does he get all his meanness done? He has help. There is spiritual warfare going on all around us. If we could actually see the battles taking place all around us we would rethink the special effects of the next action flick we see.  

We pray for His protection. I pray a hedge of protection around my family daily. I pray they are guarded by the Holy Spirit every moment of the day. It's important that we pray the will of God. We can become so busy that we leave that prayer for later when we have time. Prayer is powerful. Speaking the Word of God is power.

Check out this verse. "Then Jesus, being filled with the Holy Spirit, returned from  the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, being tempted for forty days by the devil. And in those days He ate nothing, and afterward, when they had ended, He was hungry." Luke 4:1-2

Jesus was led into the desert after He was baptized by John. He was about to begin His ministry. Ever feel when God calls you to move Satan is right there to block your path? Satan knows the blessings that are about to flow and he is going to scheme every which way to stop you from your calling. He would rather see you fall. However, Jesus has other plans!

Jesus was filled with the Holy Spirit and He was tempted by the devil. He wasn't just tempted once in a while. Scripture says for forty days He was tempted. Have you ever felt like you just couldn't catch a break? Like just when you got through one thing something else comes and hits you from behind? I know I sure have felt that way.

We have no excuse for giving into temptation. We can't sit back and say, "Well, Jesus had the Holy Spirit to fight for Him". So do we. When we accept Jesus as our Savior the Holy Spirit comes alive within us. There is no temptation that can hold us down!

We see that Satan tempted Jesus in three ways. He first temps Jesus by saying, "If You are the Son of God, command this stone to become bread." (vs 4). He doesn't stop there. Satan continues and says, "All this authority I will give You, and their glory; for this had been delivered to me, and I give it to whomever I wish. Therefore, if You will worship before me, all will be Yours." (vs 6-7). Now we see that Satan brings Jesus to Jerusalem and set Him before the pinnacle of the temple and says to Him, "If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down from here." (vs 9)

Now, let us go back to the verse we began with. It says that Jesus WAS TEMPTED! Yes, our Savior battled temptation just as you and I battle temptation. When I read these words it was as if a light bulb burst brightly before me. An "aha" moment for sure. Jesus, our Savior, is without sin. For He is perfect in every way. He battled temptation for forty days. How did He overcome? Not on His own, but with the power of the Holy Spirit!

Each and every time Satan tempted Jesus, He answered him with the Word of God. With the first temptation Jesus answers Satan and says, "It is written, 'Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every Word of God.'" (vs.4) Jesus had been fasting. Satan knew his hunger and knew exactly how to tempt Him. But with the power of the Holy Spirit Jesus overcame!

Next we see Jesus reply with the words, "Get behind Me, Satan! For it is written, 'You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve.'" (vs.8-9)

Satan hasn't given up yet. He is still tempting Jesus. As he takes Jesus to the pinnacle of Jerusalem, he tempts Him again, but once again, Jesus has an answer. "It has been said, 'You shall not tempt the Lord your God.'" (vs.12)

Want to know why we need to know the Word of God? It is our power and protection. Yes, it brings us comfort and peace, but that isn't all. It is to help us overcome the trials and temptations of this life. The Word of God is powerful and there is nothing that holds power over the Word. Satan knows this. Can you imagine the look upon his face as Jesus calmly answered him each time? I can imagine his anger flaring and he thinking of other ways to try to knock Jesus down.

Isn't that what he does to us? He tries every single possible way to knock us down and keep us there. Friends, Satan has NO POWER over us! We can stand against the evils of this world by knowing and believing the Word of God.

In verse 13 it goes on to read, "Now when the devil had ended every temptation, he departed from Him until an opportune time." Satan lies in wait for us. He knows when we are going to turn the corner. He knows the roads we travel. He knows our fears and our flesh. Yes, he knows what we battle against and it is those very things he is going to continue to throw in front of us. It's kind of like going to the grocer and standing in the check out line. Children are faced with treats that momma is going to say no to and we are faced with magazines that tempt us with the world. There are going to be times we can turn and run the other way and there are going to be those times in which we must face our temptation face to face and have the strength to say, "No way!"

Remember, during Christ's time on earth, He was all God and all man. That is mind boggling to me, but true none the less. As man, He faced every temptation we face today. He knows and He understands. In His example we see that we can answer Satan and temptation with the powerful and grace filled Word of God.

What I love is that Jesus answered Satan's every temptation with the Word of God. He didn't argue His point. He isn't screaming and tossing just any words out of His mouth. He offers up the powerful Word of God. Scripture is empowering! Scripture is freeing! It brings strength to a fearful situation. It can calm us in the storm. It brings peace to a confrontation. Knowing the Word of God arms us with everything we need for every possible situtation.

"Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour." 1 Peter 5:8

"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that you may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10

How do we battle Satan? We put on the armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-20). We live  in the Fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-25). We walk in the Spirit and know our temptations (Galatians 5:16-21). We leave our old conduct behind and walk in the new (Ephesians 4:20-32). We change our thinking to what is pure and holy (Philippians 4:8-9).

We are not defenseless humans walking about with no choice. Friends, we have the power of the Holy Spirit to lead us. He directs our paths. He sets before us all that is good. We must make a choice daily, moment by moment, to live accordingly. We are without excuse. Jesus gave us an example. He is the pattern for us to follow. Think you can't do it? Is it too hard? Try! Try again and again and again, never giving up. Never giving an inch to Satan. It begins with choice.

There is no temptation too big for you to overcome. Stop thinking you can't do it. With Christ all things are possible! (Philippians 4:13)

This desert filled land of temptation is not our home, but while we are travelers here we can live a life that will shout to the world, "Jesus is the way, the Truth and the Light!" Take courage, my friends. Be bold against the attacks. Satan has nothing on you!

I'm Being Transformed By His Word

I am in a new place in my journey with Jesus. Don't you love it when He brings you out from under the blankets to feel the warmth of the sun on your cheeks? That's what it is like waking up with Jesus. I open His Word and He shines upon me. My heart is warmed. I feel comforted and at peace in the moment. His Word comes alive and I see it as never before. It's like the words are lifted right off the pages as they enter into my heart. I wake and I hear Him call my name.

I am falling in love with His Word all over again. Remember when you first came to know Jesus? Everything was exciting. You were on a mission to learn as much as you could. You were on fire for Christ and there was nothing going to stop you. But then life happens and busy enters our day and Jesus gets pushed back. Oh sure, we go through the motions, but where is the meaning?

I don't want my life to be void of Jesus. Without Jesus there is no life. The Word is living! Praise Jesus! Does that excite you? Today it thrills me. I know without a doubt that when I read God's Word I'm about to be transformed.

"All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work." 2 Timothy 3:16-17

Jesus has perfect timing. Isn't it amazing to be moved by His Word? Even better when we read His Word and it applies to what we are going through at that moment. There are times I'm reading and a few weeks later I realize He was preparing me ahead of time. Friends, that is a Jesus who loves. He is forever preparing us for what is to come. As I press on He is there with me leading the way. His Word is my foundation. My faith is growing stronger. My time spent with Him has become sweeter than ever before.

I don't want Jesus to fade from my life because of my laziness. I don't want to become stagnant. Just going through the motions is a dangerous place to be. Its a pit in disguise. Jesus wants to have an intimate relationship with us. Open His Word today. Challenge yourself to dive in. Live without regret. Be bold in your walk. Speak the Word of God through life before us. May our actions be a reflection of Him. Live today with purpose. Be diligent in the Word. Start a new study. Dive in to the life of Paul. Read about the faith of the Old Testament saints in Hebrews 12. Check out Timothy and see how he was encouraged by Paul. Open the sweet word of John and see Jesus come to life before your eyes. Take a trip down the Roman road. Visit the church of the Ephesians and Colossians. Read about how Christ is the Corner Stone of the church. See just how powerful love is in Corinthians.

Friends, we find strength in the Word. We are challenged to live differently. We are encouraged in a thousand different ways. We are comforted. Peace is found in the Word. Everything we are and everything we need is right here in the Word of God. As everything changes around us we can read God's Word and be sure that He is present, powerful and passionate about you.

Life can be difficult. We are challenged daily. Temptation is a moment away. Sin is knocking at the door. Hearts are breaking. We don't know where to turn or what to do when all seems to fall apart. Nothing seems secure any longer. Hope seems a million miles away. Make today the day everything changes. Allow Jesus a few minutes of your time and I promise He will change your life forever. Those few minutes will soon turn into a lifetime of walking with Jesus. Come on, dive in with me. You have nothing to lose, but everything to gain.

"Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

Draw A Heart Over Those Offenses

We make lists for everything. We have our to-do lists, our party lists, our grocery lists, and so on. We carry them in our purses, in our notepads, in our computers and phones. We are the list keepers. While making the grocery list we go through the fridge and cabinets checking for what isn't there and what should be. When we make our invitation lists we think of those friends and family that impact our life. At Christmas we even make gift lists. We want to give back to those who have given to us at one time or another. Lists are a good thing, right? They help us remember. They keep us in check of what needs are to be done and chores to check off.

What happens when a disagreement between you and your husband occurs? If your like me, you bring out the list. The list is powerful and its aimed at the heart. Now that disagreement has gone back two months to the last disagreement and as if that wasn't enough to help we go back two years ago when the disagreement burst out of control. We bring our lists to the battle as if the mention of every offense will some how win the war for us. But that list of offenses we keep doesn't win the war. That's not even battling on fair ground.

Our friend forgets the date we planned to spend the day together. This isn't the first time it's happened. In fact, it happens often. You wanna know how often? I can give you date, time and offense just by checking my list. That's right, the list that is built and managed in my heart. A heart filled with offense keeping has no room for a Jesus who wants so much for me to have a forgiving heart and a life filled and lived in love. When we are forgotten it is easy to feel as if we don't matter much at all. We plan a day out in excitement, but then that days comes and we are let down.

"Love does not seek its own, is not provoked." 1 Corinthians 13:5

Offenses are wall builders. They are heart breakers. They are reminders of the past and they keep us from moving forward. Forward into a life of peace. Oh, how we point fingers. We seek forgiveness only to keep lists of the wrongs of others. We can have an attitude of, I'm going to break your heart before you break mine once again. Have you been there? It's just a stones toss away. There isn't mercy in list keeping. No grace found in those dotted i's and underlined anger. We hold on. Why? Because we fear if we let go of the offenses we then in some way lose the battle and open our heart for more wounds.

Name the offense. They are everywhere. They surround us. We are an imperfect people expecting perfection. Sometimes we offend not meaning to at all. Sometimes offense is meant, but its what we do with it that matters. The longer we hold on to the offense the more anger builds. Everything changes when we hold offenses close. They impact us so strongly it can change who we are. After a while we no longer look for the best in people, but expect the worst. Am I getting close?

Our daughter forgets our birthday. Our son tells another lie. Our mother shares what was only for her ears. Our husband doesn't notice how hard we worked on dinner and skips it all together to spend another evening with the guys. The list that keeps us down. The list that holds no power over the other who has offended, but keeps us in chains. Forgiveness frees us. It's time to erase the offenses. It's time to put down the pen that writes in red anger. We cannot seek forgiveness in a list of wrongs. Praise God we have a Savior who keeps no list of wrongs. We have a Savior who can right every wrong. Beauty from ash can only be found in Jesus. Forgiveness begins with me.

"If someone does wrong to you, forgive that person because the Lord forgave you." Colossians 3:13

Forgiveness isn't easy. Is is really suppose to be? It's part of our journey. It's learning grace. We need the Lord to forgive. It is His strength and mercy combined that bring us a new peace when we begin to erase the wrongs. Forgiveness isn't so much for the other person. There will be times when we hear the words, "Please forgive me", but there too will be times where no forgiveness is asked. What do we do then? We forgive and we love. Why? Because that is what our Savior has done for us. That is what the cross brings to our lives. Forgiveness, grace and mercy. We forgive because our Savior forgives. We lay those lists at the feet of our Savior. We tear off the page of offenses and give God the room He needs to start healing. Remember the Savior who forgives?  Forgiven forever and to be remembered no more. Yes, that is the forgiveness we too must offer.

Forgiveness doesn't mean the offense was okay. It's not giving permission for that person to hurt us again. Forgiveness is understanding we make mistakes. Forgiveness is showing grace to the one who has hurt us and it is releasing us from continuing in the pain. The longer we remain in the pain of the offense the more control we are allowing it over our lives.

When anger is present healing cannot begin. Healing begins in the heart of the humble. In the heart of those who seek the Lord. It's not easy to forgive, but Christ makes it all possible. He frees us from the offense and He tears down the wall we have built and replaces it with a shroud of love.

"Love does not count up wrongs that have been done." 1 Corinthians 13:5

 

 How is it that we justify all of our wrongs? We expect forgiveness, but are not willing to do the same. Where is the mercy and compassion? In Jesus we find a hope and a future. In Him it is possible to let go of those lists. How? We trust Him. He knows our heart like no other possibly can. It's time to be honest with Him. Open your heart up and speak to to Him. It doesn't have to be eloquent. "Jesus, I'm angry at my husband. I can't believe he said those words to me. I don't understand him. He isn't the same. Fix him, Lord. Make him better?" Have you uttered those words to the Savior? I have. I have prayed those words and what I have heard from my Savior is, "Forgive and trust Me." I am not accountable for the  behavior of any other person, but my own. If I can change my attitude and my response, might I become the woman of God to inspire another? If I speak in peace, the Lord is sure to show Himself in every situation.

 

Prayer is powerful. Jesus is mighty. I am to pray for my offenders. God can change the heart of any man. With Him there is always hope found. No situation is too big for God. Hold on. Pray and seek Jesus with all your heart. Make the first move to Jesus and get ready to see Him do a mighty work.

 

There are times I just open up and share every anger that has burdened my heart. I give each one to Jesus and trust Him. I don't trust so that I get my way, but that the Lord will not only work in the heart of the one who offended, but in my heart. May He change me through every offense to look more like Him. I am human just like you. We get hurt and instead of forgiving we keep count. Who is that helping, really? Forgiveness is freedom. Forgiveness creates second chances and third chances. People are going to let us down. People we love and who love us. We cannot have love without forgiveness. You may say, "But you don't know what she did to me". This is true, but Jesus knows. Jesus is offended daily by those who choose not to accept Him. Friends, we have a choice to forgive or to hold on. In letting go we are trusting Jesus.

 

This world is full of offenses. Turn the television and watch the 6:00 news. Offense is all around us. When we open up our heart to love we are going to be offended. Those hurts are going to come, but in faith we continue to love. We love so that God's love is able to pour out of us.

 

We become offended by our church. The gossip we have no control over. The unjust judgement. By our teacher and co-worker. Our government offends us. Friends, offense is everywhere. So, what are we to do? We are to live as Christ has called us. We are not the exception, but the example to the world. Anger only turns to bitterness and when bitterness takes root all ugly begins. Change begins with me. Within my heart I can seek the Lord and He is sure and true to forgive me. He washes me in His grace.

Friends, isn't it time to extend that same forgiveness we seek daily? It's time to look beyond the list and allow mercy to shine before us. We can make the choice to share with the person who offended us. We can speak the words to them, "I forgive you". In us opening up we are showing there is a better way. We are showing grace. How can we not? We are sinners in need of grace. We don't have to wait to hear the words, "Please forgive me", before we forgive. Let the love of Christ be bigger than the offense. May we continue to love and walk in grace. There is no weakness is forgiving. It is there in the light of grace we find a strength that brings a love able to cast out all wrongs.

 

 "And now abide faith, hope and love, these three; but the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:13    

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not  provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a

 

Dear Heavenly Father, please show me the grace I need to forgive today. Give me the strength I need to set down every offense. Lord, help to trust in You. Help me to be the woman of peace You created me to be. Help me to bring peace to every situation. May anger not be my first response, but my last. May I first call upon You for guidance. Let Your love flow through my words, my actions, my life always, so that You gain glory and honor. Lord, forgive me for holding onto the offenses of others. Show me the truth. Show me how to forgive and make way for Your sweet grace.