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Finding Grace In My Mess

The day begins and I am already questioning myself. “So, you think your a good daughter?”

I leave that question unanswered as I move on to the next, “Would you win the wife award for the week?”

Oh, I don’t even want to go there. Lets move on, please.

“Mother of the year. Would it be you?”

Over and over again, this self doubt hits me in the gut. Am I really who I say I am or am I just a struggling mess? I’d say pretty much both. I try to walk in truth. I tend not to put on a face. I learned long ago that doesn’t work, but what about this perfection thing?

Each day is a struggle. But you know, I’m finding that it’s okay. Life isn’t easy. The key is to find beauty in all that surrounds us, yep, even those struggles.

Think about it. As long as we are keeping ourselves in check, what more can we do? Friends, we can only do what we can do. We can’t ask any more or less of anyone. We try our best and take each moment with a fresh breath.

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received from me, or seen in me-put into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:8-9

We breathe in Christ and in prayer and His sweet grace, we breathe Him out.

Don’t allow Satan to fill you with self doubt today. Don’t allow his whispers to stay close at heart. As he whispers, remember the Lord’s voice is what matters and He says, “You can do it with Me”. There is nothing too big for our Savior. Nothing too small that He doesn’t take notice of and sweet one, your heart is important to Him.

It’s not so much in what we can give, but the heart of the giver.

Press on, friends. Don’t worry about yesterday or what’s ahead of you today. Just as the Lord was with you yesterday, He too is with you today and will remain with you. Take hold of His power, mighty strength and sweet grace. You are not alone today. Remember to keep the main thing the main thing and what is that? Jesus Christ. You say, it’s hard to keep focus on Him? Dear friend, repeat His name over and over again. Sing songs of His praise. Open His Word. Remove all doubt. He’s got it ALL under control.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7

God loves a mess. How do I know? Because He loves me. He loves me when I am standing tall or on my knees. Sweet grace. He can take that mess and create beauty beyond our wildest imagination. He knows we are tired and weary. He knows the frustration that hits us when we least expect it. He knows the pain we feel and the lowliness that touches our heart. That weakness? Yes, He knows and He understands.

We feel angry and upside down. I would rather stay home today instead of going to the hospital. Selfishness can roll off of my attitude. My tongue can get in the way of my smile. We are human. God created us with emotion.

We don’t have to face today alone. I might feel like a mess today, but the Lord can shine through that. I keep hearing His voice. That sweet and tender love that only He can give. You know it. You have felt it in your time of despair. Hear Him? He is saying, “I’m here my love. I’m here.”

Don’t walk in fear today. It might be cliche, but it’s true none the less. Let go and let God!

“I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13


Helen said…
This is just lovely. Thankyou for your honesty and vulnerability - I've had the conversations with myself that you describe; 'Well, you blew it there, didn't you?' and 'You're a terrible mother, always criticising...'
A work in progress indeed. God loves me too much to leave me like this.
Thankyou for your wise words and encouragement.
Bless you.

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